cause my sister is moving back in, maybe..... Really? I'm being kicked out cause she wants to move back in? Then few weeks will pass and she'll leave. Then few months later she'll want to come back.
Well, I think I may found out why I'm not getting any call backs for work. My old manager just warned me about the woman that was above her bad mouths ex employers. She learned this the hard way herself when she left. And another old co-worker learned this the hard way too. As soon as they stop putting her down they got hired.
These are times I just want to bawl my eyes out. These are times when I really see that I have nobody in my corner. It's times like this I realize why I prefer to be alone and like being a loner cause you don't get hurt that way. All I ever wanted in life was to be on my own, in my own place, and be happy. Is that really to much to ask for in life? I never cared to be rich, have the best job, etc. All I just wanted is to survive on my own. I guess I was never meant to be happy.
Anyways, if you don't hear from me, I guess you all know why. I'll update this as soon as possible.
Showing posts with label homeless. Show all posts
Showing posts with label homeless. Show all posts
Friday, 22 July 2011
Saturday, 16 July 2011
So
While at the BBQ I munched on watermelon. Then took a walk around the woods for a while. It was nice taking a walk back there. Don't get to do it often enough. Plus, I wanted to see what was back there beyond the trails we have back there. Way it is in this house I won't be surprise if they find another reason to kick me out so when they do I'm headed to my Grandfather's woods. They assume I can't survive homeless. They assume I'm stupid. What they don't realize is when you take a woman who was a tomboy growing up (and still is), always interested in survival in the wild, grew up in the woods, loves working with her hands, prefers old fashion tools over electric, a Grandfather who built all kinds of houses, along with a father who built buildings (and said woman helped) plus plenty of woods, you get a woman who knows how to build a old fashion cabin without modern things. Just a ax and a club of sorts. Which making a club is easy. And my family leaves hand tools behind in the woods during the summer for getting wood for their wood burners. They just tuck them away in large plastic coolers so they won't rust in the rain but don't have to worry about lugging them back and forth with the wood. And people tend to stick the most random things back there. I came upon a RV that's in good shape. They don't use it. Awesome. Everything that I would need to build a tiny cabin is back there. Next time I get kicked out and they changed their mind, I'm not staying. Don't care how much they ask me to come back. I won't.
P.S. Funny part. I'll still have internet access there.
P.S. Funny part. I'll still have internet access there.
Tuesday, 12 July 2011
So I was kicked out this morning
Reason being? Because I was looking at apartments. Yep, I think they realized that I'm not going to be here long and they know the whole "we can find someone else to live here for $500" BS doesn't work on me. Please, why would someone pay that much to live in a tiny room when they live in a town where they can get a small apartment for that price? When people rent rooms out in this area it's about $100 (maybe $150-200 to cover bills) they charge. Anyways, they ended up changing their mind so I came back (I guess they figure I'll be on my knees begging for mercy instead of actually packing up and walking out). But my bag is staying packed. I don't trust them. I never had. Never will. And they shouldn't be blaming me cause they want to blow over $200 on drinking and gambling when they know they can't afford it. Even if I was paying rent they still couldn't afford that. Even more so when they have a vehicle that needs to be fixed. It's not my fault they can't be responsible with their own money.
Anyways, I'm off to apply for jobs.
Anyways, I'm off to apply for jobs.
Wow what BS!
I applied for a job as a pet sitter. If I get it it'll be 12 hours a day. I love animals so spending 12 hours with a little dog would be awesome.
Now for the BS. My step sister when living here only paid $250 a month for rent, she paid nothing else. I'm going to have to pay $500 rent plus electric, gas, water, etc. And still clean their dishes, their messes around the house. She hardly ever lifted a finger. They cleaned up after her. They even said they did. Oh and her boyfriend pretty much lived here. He would be here months at a time. Don't get me wrong I get paying rent then help with the extras. But a 10x8 space is hardly worth $500. There's nearby apartments that for $565 I get a good size apartment water included. All I would have to pay for is electricity and phone. And it's just the fact that my step sister only had to pay half what I'll pay in rent and I'm staying in the same room she stayed in. And she didn't pay for anything else like I will. Here's the kicker. They paid for her cellphone..... Even bigger kicker they still were when she moved out and was for months afterwards. At one point she had two cellphones. I gave mine up cause I wouldn't have been able to afford it. And honestly I don't miss it. And she still constantly calls wanting money. She makes more then they do. And yet they hand it over to her. Not once have I ever asked for money since being here. If I don't have the money for it, I don't buy it. Even if I need it. Here I sit with a kidney stone which needs a doctor. But I don't cause I have no way of paying for it. But she wants a new movie, game, or to go on a shopping spree they just hand over the money. I don't expect or want anyone to pay my way threw life. I don't want them to foot my medical bills. But it's the principal of the whole thing. Why is she getting treated differently then me. Then again she gets treated differently then my other step sister. It's like they put her up on this peddle stole and expects everybody to baby her. And yet they wouldn't ever dream of throwing her out into the streets. But I'm facing being homeless. And constantly hearing about how they can get someone in there for 500. Well, if I get this job (crosses fingers and prays) then they can find someone. As soon as I get first and last months rent, I'm gone. Which with the amount of hours it would be it won't be hard to get that much. And since I'm going to end up with two bank accounts I'll just transfer all extra over to my old one (my bank don't have a branch in this area but I love the bank so I'm pretty much just getting one local just to cash my checks kinda thing). I'll just let them think I'm getting paid less then I am and let them think I don't have my old bank account.
P.S.
Dear God, please help me. I need you once again.
Now for the BS. My step sister when living here only paid $250 a month for rent, she paid nothing else. I'm going to have to pay $500 rent plus electric, gas, water, etc. And still clean their dishes, their messes around the house. She hardly ever lifted a finger. They cleaned up after her. They even said they did. Oh and her boyfriend pretty much lived here. He would be here months at a time. Don't get me wrong I get paying rent then help with the extras. But a 10x8 space is hardly worth $500. There's nearby apartments that for $565 I get a good size apartment water included. All I would have to pay for is electricity and phone. And it's just the fact that my step sister only had to pay half what I'll pay in rent and I'm staying in the same room she stayed in. And she didn't pay for anything else like I will. Here's the kicker. They paid for her cellphone..... Even bigger kicker they still were when she moved out and was for months afterwards. At one point she had two cellphones. I gave mine up cause I wouldn't have been able to afford it. And honestly I don't miss it. And she still constantly calls wanting money. She makes more then they do. And yet they hand it over to her. Not once have I ever asked for money since being here. If I don't have the money for it, I don't buy it. Even if I need it. Here I sit with a kidney stone which needs a doctor. But I don't cause I have no way of paying for it. But she wants a new movie, game, or to go on a shopping spree they just hand over the money. I don't expect or want anyone to pay my way threw life. I don't want them to foot my medical bills. But it's the principal of the whole thing. Why is she getting treated differently then me. Then again she gets treated differently then my other step sister. It's like they put her up on this peddle stole and expects everybody to baby her. And yet they wouldn't ever dream of throwing her out into the streets. But I'm facing being homeless. And constantly hearing about how they can get someone in there for 500. Well, if I get this job (crosses fingers and prays) then they can find someone. As soon as I get first and last months rent, I'm gone. Which with the amount of hours it would be it won't be hard to get that much. And since I'm going to end up with two bank accounts I'll just transfer all extra over to my old one (my bank don't have a branch in this area but I love the bank so I'm pretty much just getting one local just to cash my checks kinda thing). I'll just let them think I'm getting paid less then I am and let them think I don't have my old bank account.
P.S.
Dear God, please help me. I need you once again.
Friday, 8 July 2011
coffee diet
Starting weight: 190 (BMI: 34.7)
Current weight: 185 (BMI: 33.8)
1st Goal weight: 175 (BMI: 32.0) By: August 7th
2nd Goal weight: 160 (BMI: 30.2) By: Sept.
The Big Goal: 99 (BMI: 18.1) By: Oct.
I manage to drop another pound. I'm calling this my coffee diet. That's all I've been living off of. Just ten more pounds for my first goal. It's a good thing I'm a coffee addict.
I need to find a job, fast. If I don't by next month I'm going to be kicked out and living on the streets. Awesome! (all kinds of sarcasm with that awesome) Problem with this town, when you are homeless you have no place to go. No shelters no nothing. But I guess that's what you get when you live in a town of just a hair over 16,500 people living in it. Not enough homeless people to bother helping. I don't even know if there is any homeless here. Hopefully I find something. Being homeless in -20 to -30 weather isn't my idea of fun. So I ended up spending the night tossing and turning. Got maybe if I'm lucky two hours sleep. And it's not that I haven't been looking. Just few places are hiring and they aren't calling me after I apply. I'm applying everywhere, even if they aren't hiring. Because you never know. I've gotten calls in the past from places that weren't hiring when I applied. Once I get that job I'm saving every penny for first and last month rent and I'm out of here. Once I find a job I'll be paying $500 a month just for my room in this house. That's not including everything else. That's just crazy. I can pay less (about $400-$450) in this town for a whole apartment. And some of them includes water and power with that. And it's not like it's a bad neighborhood because bad neighborhoods don't exist in this town. The "bad" neighborhood here is the one I'm living in now! And trust me after living almost a decade in a really big city in the South, this neighborhood is Mr. Rogers neighborhood in comparison to the one I lived in down South. Let's just say down there while jogging in my area one night I ran into two robbers. I mean literally we ran into each other. And the search helicopter was out every night. And few shootings literally in the alley behind my house. And cops always chasing people down, which they seemed to love running threw my backyard. So, yeah to me this town doesn't have a bad neighborhood. They say where I'm living at now is bad because there is one or two druggies here. And that's it. Anyways, I had to get that off my chest.
Current weight: 185 (BMI: 33.8)
1st Goal weight: 175 (BMI: 32.0) By: August 7th
2nd Goal weight: 160 (BMI: 30.2) By: Sept.
The Big Goal: 99 (BMI: 18.1) By: Oct.
I manage to drop another pound. I'm calling this my coffee diet. That's all I've been living off of. Just ten more pounds for my first goal. It's a good thing I'm a coffee addict.
I need to find a job, fast. If I don't by next month I'm going to be kicked out and living on the streets. Awesome! (all kinds of sarcasm with that awesome) Problem with this town, when you are homeless you have no place to go. No shelters no nothing. But I guess that's what you get when you live in a town of just a hair over 16,500 people living in it. Not enough homeless people to bother helping. I don't even know if there is any homeless here. Hopefully I find something. Being homeless in -20 to -30 weather isn't my idea of fun. So I ended up spending the night tossing and turning. Got maybe if I'm lucky two hours sleep. And it's not that I haven't been looking. Just few places are hiring and they aren't calling me after I apply. I'm applying everywhere, even if they aren't hiring. Because you never know. I've gotten calls in the past from places that weren't hiring when I applied. Once I get that job I'm saving every penny for first and last month rent and I'm out of here. Once I find a job I'll be paying $500 a month just for my room in this house. That's not including everything else. That's just crazy. I can pay less (about $400-$450) in this town for a whole apartment. And some of them includes water and power with that. And it's not like it's a bad neighborhood because bad neighborhoods don't exist in this town. The "bad" neighborhood here is the one I'm living in now! And trust me after living almost a decade in a really big city in the South, this neighborhood is Mr. Rogers neighborhood in comparison to the one I lived in down South. Let's just say down there while jogging in my area one night I ran into two robbers. I mean literally we ran into each other. And the search helicopter was out every night. And few shootings literally in the alley behind my house. And cops always chasing people down, which they seemed to love running threw my backyard. So, yeah to me this town doesn't have a bad neighborhood. They say where I'm living at now is bad because there is one or two druggies here. And that's it. Anyways, I had to get that off my chest.
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