So my ex still attempts to get me back. Still attempts to get my jealous. Clearly he didn't really know me or he would know I wasn't the type to get jealous over other woman looking at men I'm interested in or in this case immature boys that I was with but is sooooo not interested in anymore and glad it's over. Anyways, I guess him spying on me like he does he seen me and my friend talking about weight loss on facebook. She's losing weight as well and everyone thinks I'm losing weight the "healthy" way. I had mentioned I had gone down a size in jeans to her. He sends me a message "I would like to see your ass in those jeans." So I sent a reply back "HAHAHA!!!!! Sucks for you cause my ass is reserved for someone else." He left me alone for few days, finally! But I woke up this morning to more messages from him. You'll think he'll get the point that I don't want him and I'm interested in someone else. I don't care how lonely he is. He brought it on himself. He had me, he was abusive, I had enough and I left his sorry ass. He can send me messages about all these woman that want him. I'm not going to get jealous. I just worry about these woman cause I know how he's like. I know what's it's like to be abused. I don't ever want to see another woman go threw that. But I have noticed he's sending less messages. Maybe he's getting it!
So I gained weight. I've been having really bad stomach problems (I have IBS and diverticulosis. Yeah, lucky me!) last few days. I ended up spending the early mornings yesterday puking. Then slept rest of morning, day, night, and this morning. So, I think with my stomach (I easily bloat) and the heat (which makes me gain water weight) it's causing me to gain some weight. I can feel the bloat. I hate that. It's so gross. Sorry for you readers. I'm sure that's more then you wanted to know! Anyways, so I might wait few days before I weigh myself. Let the bloat settle.
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Thursday, 21 July 2011
Monday, 11 July 2011
Job searching
Starting weight: 190 (BMI: 34.7)
Current weight: 184 (BMI: 33.7)
1st Goal weight: 175 (BMI: 32.0) By: August 7th
2nd Goal weight: 160 (BMI: 30.2) By: Sept.
The Big Goal: 99 (BMI: 18.1) By: Oct.
I'm going to start job searching today. With the rain today I'm going to apply online. Even though it's not raining at the moment but as soon as I have a application in my hand it will start to pour again. And I walk or bicycle anywhere I want to go.
I lost another pound. I got worried yesterday. But I realized it was cause how hot and humid it was yesterday and the day before. I always retain fluid when it's hot, even more so when it's humid. But I jump on the scale today and saw I dropped another pound. Then again I did sweat off the fluid I had build up last night. I kept waking up covered in sweat. So I'm hoping this is a pound of fat and not just water weight.
Went to the beach the other day. Went to a spot that nobody goes too. Swim a little then jump on a trail that's there. Walked for awhile. Loved it.
My Ex now thinks I want to be back with him. HAHAHA! Wow! What a joke that is. Apparently cause I'm pleasant to him when he gets in contact with me makes it that I want him. I never understood his logic on that. I remember once a woman he use to work with had called since he was the one that helped with hiring people and asked if they where hiring again. That's all she asked and wanted to know. As soon as he got off the phone with her "I think she wants me! She called and asked about a job, I know she wants me." Please! She wanted a job, not you, and you help with hiring, duh! It's like whatever I don't want you. It's you that wants me back. Which is why he use to text me asking if I missed him and why he's always drunk messaging me about how horrible his life is now and how it's spiraling out of control since I left. And how he misses having someone. Etc, etc. Now drunk messages I don't reply too. But I have replied to the "do you miss me?" I always replied no. After the 3rd no he stopped. He can't stand the fact that I don't want him and I don't miss him. So he's making up BS. The thing that worries me is that he's feeding this to a woman that's believing him. I don't blame her. He's good at the whole "whoa is me" lines and people do tend to fall for it. And that's what worries me. She apparently broke up with her boyfriend so he's laying it on thick now to her. She's falling for it. I don't want her to get hurt like I did. But he has her convince I'm a complete nutjob (oh if she only knew who really was) so if I was to warn her she wouldn't believe me. I see the games he's playing, the same games he played on me. And I hate seeing another woman get hurt as bad as I did by him. even now every night when I go to bed I have nightmares and it's been 7 months. Sometimes the nightmares are bad enough that I can't sleep rest of the night.
That's about all that's going on in my life at the moment.
Current weight: 184 (BMI: 33.7)
1st Goal weight: 175 (BMI: 32.0) By: August 7th
2nd Goal weight: 160 (BMI: 30.2) By: Sept.
The Big Goal: 99 (BMI: 18.1) By: Oct.
I'm going to start job searching today. With the rain today I'm going to apply online. Even though it's not raining at the moment but as soon as I have a application in my hand it will start to pour again. And I walk or bicycle anywhere I want to go.
I lost another pound. I got worried yesterday. But I realized it was cause how hot and humid it was yesterday and the day before. I always retain fluid when it's hot, even more so when it's humid. But I jump on the scale today and saw I dropped another pound. Then again I did sweat off the fluid I had build up last night. I kept waking up covered in sweat. So I'm hoping this is a pound of fat and not just water weight.
Went to the beach the other day. Went to a spot that nobody goes too. Swim a little then jump on a trail that's there. Walked for awhile. Loved it.
My Ex now thinks I want to be back with him. HAHAHA! Wow! What a joke that is. Apparently cause I'm pleasant to him when he gets in contact with me makes it that I want him. I never understood his logic on that. I remember once a woman he use to work with had called since he was the one that helped with hiring people and asked if they where hiring again. That's all she asked and wanted to know. As soon as he got off the phone with her "I think she wants me! She called and asked about a job, I know she wants me." Please! She wanted a job, not you, and you help with hiring, duh! It's like whatever I don't want you. It's you that wants me back. Which is why he use to text me asking if I missed him and why he's always drunk messaging me about how horrible his life is now and how it's spiraling out of control since I left. And how he misses having someone. Etc, etc. Now drunk messages I don't reply too. But I have replied to the "do you miss me?" I always replied no. After the 3rd no he stopped. He can't stand the fact that I don't want him and I don't miss him. So he's making up BS. The thing that worries me is that he's feeding this to a woman that's believing him. I don't blame her. He's good at the whole "whoa is me" lines and people do tend to fall for it. And that's what worries me. She apparently broke up with her boyfriend so he's laying it on thick now to her. She's falling for it. I don't want her to get hurt like I did. But he has her convince I'm a complete nutjob (oh if she only knew who really was) so if I was to warn her she wouldn't believe me. I see the games he's playing, the same games he played on me. And I hate seeing another woman get hurt as bad as I did by him. even now every night when I go to bed I have nightmares and it's been 7 months. Sometimes the nightmares are bad enough that I can't sleep rest of the night.
That's about all that's going on in my life at the moment.
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