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Starting weight: 190 (BMI: 34.7)
Current weight: 183 (BMI: 33.5)
1st Goal weight: 175 (BMI: 32.0) By: August 7th
2nd Goal weight: 160 (BMI: 30.2) By: Sept.
The Big Goal: 99 (BMI: 18.1) By: Oct.After my last post I worked out and purged everything I had from the BBQ for my Mom's birthday. Thankfully being a vegetarian there is a built in excuse why I ate very little there. I've avoided food since. Babysitting is making it easy to avoid eating. I know purging gets rid of only about 20% of calories but I rather lose 20% then 0%. I've lost few ibs since, thankfully. But how I wish I was at 177 like I was. Well more like I wish I could redo last two weeks cause I know I would of been at my 1st goal and most likely past it. But I guess I can't beat myself up and hang on to it. I gotta let it go if I want to move forward with this and get the weight gone. Good news, no more birthdays coming up. And hopefully that was the last of BBQ's. Now I can go back to avoiding all foods unless I have to eat to keep people off my backs.
Ok, I can't find my glasses. I think I left them over where I babysit. I'll call and see if they are there.

So

While at the BBQ I munched on watermelon. Then took a walk around the woods for a while. It was nice taking a walk back there. Don't get to do it often enough. Plus, I wanted to see what was back there beyond the trails we have back there. Way it is in this house I won't be surprise if they find another reason to kick me out so when they do I'm headed to my Grandfather's woods. They assume I can't survive homeless. They assume I'm stupid. What they don't realize is when you take a woman who was a tomboy growing up (and still is), always interested in survival in the wild, grew up in the woods, loves working with her hands, prefers old fashion tools over electric, a Grandfather who built all kinds of houses, along with a father who built buildings (and said woman helped) plus plenty of woods, you get a woman who knows how to build a old fashion cabin without modern things. Just a ax and a club of sorts. Which making a club is easy. And my family leaves hand tools behind in the woods during the summer for getting wood for their wood burners. They just tuck them away in large plastic coolers so they won't rust in the rain but don't have to worry about lugging them back and forth with the wood. And people tend to stick the most random things back there. I came upon a RV that's in good shape. They don't use it. Awesome. Everything that I would need to build a tiny cabin is back there. Next time I get kicked out and they changed their mind, I'm not staying. Don't care how much they ask me to come back. I won't.

P.S. Funny part. I'll still have internet access there.

Some "ana tips" just don't work for me

It's weird but stuff that seems to help others don't for me. Or worse it does the complete opposite. Like drinking water to stay full. I tend to get more hungry it seems with that. Odd I know. Sometimes I wonder if it's just me that thinks that. Either way I'll still drink water instead of other things. But one thing that does always work for me. Cooking. If I cook by the time I'm done cooking I'm not hungry anymore and I don't want it. Smell of food and preparing is apparently enough for me. So at least I got that on my side. Maybe I should work in a soup kitchen or restaurant, I would never eat. Added benefit people assume that if you cook you ate some of it even though you didn't!
Mentioning of people thinking you're eating when you're not. I got to figure out safe foods to eat for when I have to sit down at the table with the family. Thankfully that hardly ever happens but when it does I want a plate of safe foods that are low or preferable no calories but  that doesn't scream that it is. Other words something besides a plate of salad. Cause my family will pick at me for eating only salad. Any suggestion on things that are low/0 calories but would come off as a "real meal?" I'm a vegetarian so that helps cause they are not. Therefore they are lost on what I can and can't eat. But the problem is they pick at what I eat with things like "you can't just eat only that?!?!"